Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Rows and Floes of Angel Hair

I have just mistaken someone at the very best coffee shop* for someone else, and spoken accordingly.

How embarassing.

Still, she laughed it off nervously and played along.

While and after I ordered a short cap and a silver needle tea, she continued the same laughter. Her strain is maybe something else and not me. That's a relief.

I've left the house to clear my head.

I'm thinking of right turns, southpaws, cold feet, and the gold dust that settles in my lover's hair.
I'm wondering how two people can live together for fourteen years and navigate the boneyard labyrinth between them - a tired ribcage before the heart, and doors that won't open.

One shouldn't have to work so hard, only to arrive at this.

It hasn't been the jolliest of Christmases, nor the worst of times by any means, but I suspect I'm not alone in my Holiday Ambivalence. Even Spreaders of Good Cheer are under duress. I never guessed Disney would repossess Santa (who was recently handed his ass), but I guess they own everything else. Is Bill O'Reilly puffed-up, red-faced and spitting about that?

Maybe it's time to mention a few things for which I have gratitude:

- I have love in my life.
- Some very dear friends.
- Fondness for my regular readership (and I am yours), though I wish you'd post more comments, for good or ill.
- I've just learned that my blog rank on Technorati is 247,131. That's not so bad, but surprising given the low number of hits per day. I also just realized that when I made the switch to BetaBlogger, it wiped out the ads, which is odd, as they were Google sponsored. It's just as well.
- The comforting way my dog snores.
- The severely damaged nail on my index finger is half way grown out now.
- My mother's clear of cancer.
- Mr. Claus saw fit to send a friend a lap(ple)top, which is what I've dreamed of getting her for years, if I were a rich man. She deserved it.
- I'm less afraid than I was two years ago, and less still than half a decade before that.
- Sometimes I dream about Claire.
- I've some resolutions I'm willing to make.
- I've been reminded that time is quite possibly infinite, so I can't really be wasting it.
- The sun just came out for the first time since I've been home.



*There. Now you have a way to find me, and if chance keeps us separated, you can content yourself with the very best coffee in Portland, so far as I know it. They have free wifi, like every other boutique espresso place in this fair city, though at the chains you must pay.

4 comments:

m/p said...

happy holidays!

i hear portland is beautiful this time of year. but i hear its beautiful any ole time.

Huckleberry said...

I hate coffee shops.
That probably stems from the fact that I hate coffee.
Unless its Irish...

Huckleberry said...

Oh, and just for the sake of reference, that "postsecret" link on your sidebar? Gawddamn you for puttin' that up...it is the blogging equivalent of smack, and I fear my own addictions...

Anonymous said...

Here are some things for which I am grateful:

*Shocking pink harnesses on little white chihuahuas
*Friendly people in airports
*My dear body, sick as it is, and my health, upper jiao shenanigans notwithstanding
*My husband's bod, mreow
*That people are still in touch with the earth and the sky enough to put stars on top of evergreens in midwinter
*Sparky blondes
*Chrystanthemums and dahlias and roses
*Hope & options
*Nieces and nephews and their progenitors
*The southern California sun on your back when it's cool enough for a sweater